Well, today is Christmas Eve, and it's been a good day. Yesterday was okay, but emotionally sucked. Spent the day with mom, went to IOP first, then we went shopping. We went to Target. With my gift card from La Paloma, I got 2 CDs (Kid Cudi & Lil Wayne). Afterwards, mom went to work and I wrapped some presents with Shana & Michael (who came over for the night). We watched a couple of movies. Today, we spent the day together, and Bella, Eyona, & Lex got in from their road trip. We went grocery shopping and Shana & Michael went home. I finished making my goodie bags. We had a "birthday dinner" for dad, then me, Anthony, & Lex went to a meeting. That was fun. Anthony's so handsome, and sweet. I made a "Christmas Care Package" for Suzanne and mom says she'll take me to La Paloma tomorrow, so she can open it on Christmas. At least it might bring some Christmas cheer to a hard time in rehab. Anyway, tomorrow's the big day, and I'm super excited. I bet I'm gonna sleep crummy. Dyed my hair more-red today, and painted my nails a different color. Alright, now. I'm tired....


Today, I have been released, or formerly known as discharged, from La Paloma. It was quite emotional, even though I've not cried. Sara gave me a TY beanie baby as a present. A monkey, Coconut. We had graduation, and it was very hard to leave everyone. Alecia, Rosemary, Pat, Suzanne, Suzy, Sara, Adam, Ramsey, the nurses, etc... I was settled, comfortable. Serene. My own "perfect bubble". I want to keep up with all of them, but it's going to be hard. I need to keep in touch with Pat, Carol, and the RC's. I love them all. They've been so helpful. I need to organize my thoughts. They're all jumbled, scattered all over the damn place. So, it's now my job to put them in order, and go with the flow. To process all the information, and elimate the ideas. Writhing in my brain, these thoughts are out of order. Slithering around like a snake. I want my brain to settle down! Dad's birthday was yesterday. He's 49 now. I'm so anxious for Christmas! 3 more days! Kitkat is so sweet. She gave me a back massage this evening. Oh! Shana & Michael came to my graduation today. That was nice. Michael's gotten a mustache and chin beard. Silly lookin goatee. Shana's tits are huge & full of milk, and her belly is gettin big. LOL. Christmas tree is purdy. Man, I miss everyone already, but it's good to be home.


Well, today was kinda sorta bland. Went to Process Group for a bit, then left to go to the Chiropractor. Did X-Rays and found out that my neck is straight instead of curved, how it should be, and the bones are likely pinching nerves. So, he did a couple of adjustments, and I went to go make another appointment. The receptionist let me draw a number for a drawing out of the bucket. I drew #18, and won a huge King-Size Microfiber blanket! How cool! So, I get back to La Paloma, then get a notice that I have to see the doctor. Did that, then I had to see Shelley, the discharge lady. Got my paperwor, went to the business office, got Brad's signature, went next door to Rebecca, did my survey, got my signature and t-shirt, and went to Carol for her signature. Oh! Today Adam wrote me back, and it was the dorkiest, cutest letter ever! Hehe! Oh also, Cujo (the cat) left me a present in the birdcage this morning. It was a female Cardinal. Not bloody, just dead from a likely broken neck. He was so excited to show me, throwing it in the air and everything. So, I freaked all the girls 'n' guys out by showing it to them (a funeral of sorts), and took it to the garden to bury it, so she can be a beautiful flower someday. Not a bland day, afterall. So, I'm going to bed, wishing my stay here wasn't so short, and I'm going to miss everyone. Not enough to come back though. :P


Today's been fun. I held the community meeting, and everyone was glad it went by so fast. Went to WalMart with Jeanie, Ramsey, Jamie, a male RC, and Kim. It was so fun. Got a lot of goodies. :) Some beads, twine, book tabs, pens, glue, sharpies, and some food stuffs! Yay! Oh, and I made some other ladies happy by shopping the best I could for them. They love me, well most of them, and I don't get it. Maybe it's just a front? I don't know. I've been super Bi-Polar lately. Just awful moody. I think it's the neck pains/back pains, and it sets me off. But, I'm recognizing it. Kim is so sweet, compared to Ruby (RCs), who's as dumb as a box of rocks. She just won't leave me alone! Anyway, Suzanne and I have been bonding lately. I've been making hemp bracelets, some for Dad, Noah, Shana, Eyona, Michelle, Lex, and Mom. Made earrings for Mom, Lex, and Michelle. I hope they like them. I know they will, but in their minds as well as their hearts. Also, I need to make cards! So, tomorrow I will finish the bracelets, then work on the cards. Also, I need to make Pat one more pair of earrings & a card. Rosemary, Kim, & Loretta some earrings. Hehe! Maybe a couple of girls, too. LOVE crafts! Paintings for Mom, Dad, Noah, Shana, and Lex too. Well, time for beauty sleep. :) Night...